小雲's Life&Love

Everyone heard of Japan's tsunami today ? there are many who died and many are still missing. so wish that everyone will pray for Japan !!

to be honest, i can't believe that i am involved with this kind of history. my teacher taught us about radiations today. the atomic bombs that were once launched are still affecting humans today. there are many who still have cancers and many other disease, are all because of the radiations. why can't we have a happy life without war ? why can't we just live in peace ? is violence the only way can solve a problem between countries ? many kids know that we should not do anything involving violence, yet our own government do so. shouldn't the government be our best examples ?? 

I can't believe that our friendship is weaking. i don't know if you care or not but i really do. not just the fact that i like you but also that we are best friends. right ? at least that's what i think and i hope that we still are .... you have just always been there and now you're gone. hahaaa !! i've lost you many times honestly, and losing you again might not make any difference. i told myself to move on but ..... i think it's really hard when we are in the same school, same classes, and in the same area every single day. i really want to take a fresh hair !

omg ! i finally watched Burlesque !! it's a great movie !! i can't believe how good Christina is !! i bet she had a lot of hard time while recording that movie. ^^ good for her though in the end, everything's worth it ^^ i will also have to thanks David Chuek, my high school best friend, that he let me borrowed his laptop to watch it. he was sleeping behind me or something. i don't remember. XPPP

i have been talking to my closest friends and there was a part were we talked about our future. my future will be easy, go to SJSF for the first 2 years, then hopefully and successfully transfer to University of Washington and then live in Washington. ^^ my major will be nursing and hopefully get a good job with it too. then when i get a job and as soon as i settle down with the money and maybe a house or an apartment, i will adopt a baby boy and/or baby girl. I can imagine how beautiful they will be. i will promise and swear that i will be the best mom on earth ! hahaaa ! After they are a few years older, i will get them a dog. I can imagine the dog already. the dog that is in the movie called Hachi. i think that dog is gorgous. he is just so pretty. i can imagine my own little happy family. 

now, you might be curious why there is not a husband or a boyfriend. the reason why is that i don't know what kind of person would be with me permanent in this life time. i have no idea who on earth would like me. i really can't imagine. and i don't think that i have the energy to do that. what happens if my perfect dream is ruined ? i think i will just be really depressed then and hate my life. i think living with kids would be just fine. if i really don't get a husband or a boyfriend, i think i can live up with that. 

to me now, no matter how beautiful love is, it seems that it is avoiding or i'm avoiding it as far away as possible. i'm really afraid of touching that kind of love right now. it can be real sweet sometimes but it can be hella spicy as well. why risk that ? 

阿 !! 我快煩死了 . 每天都可以看到你應該是一件很開心的是阿, 那為什麼我會感到這麼煩呢 . 

我總於知道單戀原來是這麼痛苦的 . 我們雖然之前有說過喜歡對方, 然後呢 ? 好像是什麼東西都沒發生耶 ..... 是我自己一個人期待奇蹟嗎 ? 我真的快瘋了 . 我好想我們之前的曖昧喔 . 像大家說的, 曖昧真的很美 . 

會是我想太多嗎 ? 我真的有點覺得我們是可能的耶 .... 這麼辦呢 .... 我可能就只能遠遠的看著你了 . 再過一年我們就要畢業了耶 . 好快喔. 我記得我以轉學剛來到新學校的時候, 我們都不會跟對方說話 . 如果我沒記錯的話, 你好像不是很喜歡我 . 我也不知道拉 . 我只知道你和其他男同學都會欺負我 . 我那時候真的對你又愛又恨 . 沒有愛也恨拉 . 只是喜歡又不喜歡而已 , 還小嘛 . 我們真的經歷過好多喔 . 我們一起談戀愛 , 跟不同的人 . 一起分手 . 一起抱怨 . 我們雖然要分離了 ,  可是我還是會記得那一點一滴屬於我跟你美麗的回意 . 也沒有很美啦, 只是很可愛的童年 . 就算我們以後可能不會在一起 , 我們還是可以當很好很好的朋友 , 不是嗎 ? 

我覺得我真的會很想你耶 . 哈哈 . 我真的不知道我那裡來的勇氣然我可以單戀一個人這麼久 . 希望我的秘密不會被結串 . ^^

幸好我是全校唯一用這個網的人 . 幸運嗎 ? ^^

沒想到我會再次愛上你. 每當我看到你的時候都一定會有個笑容掛在我的臉上. 我最近好累哦. 你都去了哪裡 ?

我最近在看"愛似百匯 Love Buffet". 我很喜歡看. 陳奕儒真的很可愛 ! 他的一舉一動都很可愛. 沒想到我又會愛上他.

我們最近都很冷淡. 你不會主動的找我. 我也不會主動的打電話給你. 你過得好嗎 ? 我真的不懂你再向什麼. 我問你對我有沒有一點點的喜歡, 你卻說不知道. 我快要瘋掉了啦 ! 我真的不想喜歡你, 可是這真的很難. 你難道一點喜歡我的意思都沒有嗎 ? 我不懂你在想什麼, 可以跟我分享你的感受嗎 ? 

是不是我想太多了 ? 你可能一點都不喜歡我啊 . 我可能真的想太多了 . 因為我記得你喜歡她的時候是多麼的開心啊 . 你會不停的陪在她的身邊 . 你也會三不五時的告訴大家你有多喜歡她 . 我們真的不可能在一起嗎 ? 我就真的那麼不讓你喜歡嗎 ? 你可以不可以告訴我為什麼啊 ? 如果你真的說了, 我會比現在還開心吧 . 因為我至少知道為什麼啊. 我真的很久沒有跟你聊心了. 希望你會過得很好 . 而且請記得我們那一段莫名其妙的日子 . 跟你在一起真的會很開心 . 我很希望你也會一個你很喜歡的女孩 . 

說真的, 我真的很想快點看到我的白馬王子 . 他會是這麼樣的一個人呢 ? 高高的 ? 矮矮的 ? 胖胖的 ? 其實這些都不是重點, 只要我們是互相喜歡的話, 我們一定會很幸福的. 

我只能說我真的很傻. 我以為只要耐心地等待就會得到你的愛. 但我今天發現了你的世界根本就沒有我的存在. 我只是個暫時的朋友而已. 你根本沒有想過我會因為你而放棄我的未來. 

我真傻, 以為你會回頭愛護我. 我還以為我們是有可能的. 可是你今天的一舉一動都告訴了我真相. 

我們在一起的時候都是假相. 我太天真了. 我不該相信你的謊言, 我好後悔喔. 

你真的不喜歡我嗎 ? 如果是的話, 那你為什麼要做些會讓我小鹿亂撞的事呢 ? 我很氣你但我更氣我自己. 氣自己為什麼會本到相信你. 氣自己為什麼會把愛分給你. 氣自己沒有勇氣的忘掉你. 我的心真的碎了. 零碎的心靈再也不會屏起來了. 就把我的心分到世界各地吧. 誰需要愛的, 請你好好珍惜自己和你的愛, 否則受傷的不是別人, 而是你自己

"先愛自己才有資格愛別人."

今天看了新的一部電影叫做 Just Go WIth It, 超好看的. Jennifer Aniston 很漂亮! 

我跟6個朋友一起去. 有Judy, Mao, Raymond, Shinn, Juan Carlos, and Tony. i had a really fun day. 

i was the first one at school, well .... out of the people above, yes. i was in the cafeteria playing tetris. i was debating whether i should go or not because i didn't have my glasses. and there's not much of a point to watch a movie when you can't see what's going on. when the boys came to schoo, it was 11a.m. i was shocked that they weren't late. so i called Judy and Mao and i was informed that they were still at coming, on their way to school. i was surprised, but oh well. 

when we were at the theater, we had no idea what to watch first. we wanted to watch Gnomeo and Juliet, but it was too late. The room was full and the only seats were front seats. so we decided to watch Just Go With It. To be honest, i find that title very interesting. I never thought how the movie would be. I never paid attention to the title. when we got our seats, i was sitting at the most corner. The seatings were like this, 

(from left to Right)

今天California的天氣不錯麻, 都沒有下雨耶. 今天是星期天. 沒什麼事做. 明天也沒讀書 !! ^^

今天就跟幾個男生打了籃球, 沒事做麻. 哈哈

今天的心情跟天氣一樣, 都還不錯. 跟他說電話的時候, 雖然沒有跟他說什麼, 不過很喜歡聽到他的聲音. 很像他剛起床一樣. 哈哈. 我好瞎喔.

沒辦法拉,  喜歡一個人就是這樣的麻 xpp

希望大家有個美好的一天啦

很莫名的愛上你是一件很美和很煩惱的事. 我從沒想過會對你有感覺, 至到你很溫柔的對我說, 你喜歡我嗎?

每當我看到你, 想到你, 我的嘴角會微微的笑著. 想起我們那時候是多甜蜜. 我們每天晚上都會通電話, 也一定會聊了最少一個小時. 那時的你是很sweet也很體貼的. 我真的很懷念我們很曖昧的時候哦. 

最懷念的是你把你那溫暖的手輕輕的放到我的臉頰時. 我記得那時時冬天. 你就坐在我的後面. 你的手輕輕的摸著我的臉頰. 我那是真的很害羞, 不過我還是沒有把你的手甩開. 我真的不知道你是不是喜歡我的. 

我記得你喜歡她的時候, 你會很興奮的聊到關於她的是. 而你什麼都沒有對其他人說關於我們的是. 你喜歡我嗎 ? 我真的越來越煩了. 你做了很多讓我多想的事. 我覺得你並不喜歡我. 你只是無聊想找人玩玩而已. 

我也不知道我有沒有愛過你, 可是我會繼續的把這段友宜維持下去.